There is a necrosis in me,
of body and spirit.
To cut away the rotting parts
would be to lose that which was hard won
decades ago at the price of great pain.
I mourn the perceived loss of this limb
and hope for a sign that something remains;
a phantom limb, greening, life.
I check the edges for the slightest
hint of raw, pink flesh around the edges
of the blackness that has taken up residence
in my once vibrant being.
I’d bandage my blackened limb
if I thought it would help,
but having lost and re-grown flesh before,
I know time is the only treatment.
…speaking frankly, though,
I am fucking sick and tired of keeping vigil
while waiting for healing to occur.
~ Mk Michaels, 2016